2014

"You stay a little while, and touch me with your smile."

June 2014 -  First impression ko sa kanya: snob, smart, serious, a kind of person who doesn't know how to have fun. Pero nung nakilala ko na siya, everything has changed.

August 2014 -   I didn't know his full name. I ended up asking my classmates.

Small talks, casual conversations. He asked me questions na feeling ko...just to keep the conversation? Eh basta yun. I admire him for that kasi mahiyain ako, mas gusto ko na ako yung unang tinatanong. Until he suddenly asked the question, "Paano ka magkaka-boyfriend nyan?" I was surprised. I didn't answer. I ended up smiling at him. (pabebe lang? lol!) Maybe, he's just friendly.

I noticed na every week na siyang nasa tabi ko. (once a week ko lang siya nakikita) Dedma lang ako sa gesture niyang yun kasi naisip ko, there's nothing wrong if he decided to sit beside me.

September 2014 - He was sitting beside me and he said, "Giniginaw ka? He stood, pinahinaan niya yung aircon. (sumusobra naman kasi yung lamig ng aircon sa room na yun) That's sweet. Simple joys.

I'll never forget that day when he stood right in front of me..just the two of us (ano daw? naks!) and he said, "Tara kain tayo..." He said that 2-3 times but I refused. Sinabi ko sa kanyang busog ako, pero gusto ko rin siyang samahan, nagpigil lang ako. (pero sa itsura niya, konting pilit na lang sasamahan ko na talaga siya) But it's not the right time.

October 2014 -  Exam. He suddenly barged into the classroom where I was. Well, pwede naman yun. Haha! He sat beside me. While I was taking the exam, he just kept on talking like, "Patingin nga, sure ka na ba dyan? Galing ah." Gusto ko siyang palayasin sa tabi ko that time, hindi ako makapag-concentrate. Ang kulit lang. I got used to it.

November 2014 - When he said, "You deserved it. :)" --- Happiness.

February 2015 -  Valentine's Day. He saw me, I saw him. We smiled at each other. (ano daw? haha!) I was waiting for my bestfriend kasi we decided na mag-date since wala kaming ka-date. He approached me and he said, "Ba't 'di ka pa umuuwi?" Ang nasabi ko naman, "Tagal ng date ko. Haha!" then there was an...awkward silence? He smiled but it felt awkward. He asked, "Kailan graduation?" I answered, "April. Malayo pa. Haha!" then he said, "Malapit na yun! Wait lang, babalik ako." I nodded. After awhile, naramdaman kong may humampas ng face towel sa'kin. It was him. He apologized and smiled. I smiled back. He's such a...never mind.

I was eating lunch with my bestfriend when I saw him and he was like, *pahingi naman ng kinakain mo look with pa-cute effect* So ayun, I smiled at him. After we ate lunch, nag-coffee kami ni bestfriend before umuwi. We went to a cafe. He was there, nag-papalibre pa nga at humawak pa sa balikat ko. Maybe, he didn't notice what he just did? because he even said "sorry"-- gentleman, hihi! While I was listening sa mga kwento ni bestfriend, napatingin ako sa way niya then I realized that I was staring at him. He looked at me and smiled. Thank God he smiled. Oh, that smile.

March 2015 - Last day of school, after class. Nag-text sa'kin si bestfriend na magkita kami. I love coffee. Kaya pati si bestfriend, no choice na samahan akong mag-kape kapag magkasama kami. Haha! Again, he was there. Tambay na yata siya dun o trip niya lang. So there, nag-kape kami ni bestfriend at nag-kwentuhan then suddenly, may old woman na pumasok at lumapit sa table namin, asking for some money kasi daw ganito and ganito, binigyan namin kahit paano pero after nun, nag-demand pa yung ale. He suddenly called my name and said, "Wag mong pansinin." So I didn't. I wasn't looking to the old woman neither to him, mahirap na. (basta yun. haha!) After awhile, nagpaalam na rin ako sa kanya na mauna na kami ni bestfriend umuwi then he replied, "Ingat!" --- It was a good day after all.

April 2015 - Graduation Day! Finally! It was also the last time I saw him.


..and I just realized that I miss him.